The Prescience of Magnanimity

THE MEGADEATH IN CLOUD CUCKOO LAND
.....the most awesome blog post title ever???

I decided I'll be posting it on ICM, after distinguishing it as the "wittier" and "me-er" (har-dee-HAR-HAR) blog. I simply think I can't be who I want to be on ZC, though I do know I've mentioned it several times. And no, it's not because of the readers. It's because of what ZC makes the readers imply, which, specifically, makes them think I'm an uptight, didactic preacher.

Which, with all sincerity, isn't who I want to be. Ever.

Technically, the blog post is empty other than the bizarrely terrific title. I have attempted, too many times to count, but I can't seem to capture whatever I have in mind. It turns into something so didactic, which I won't exactly put to waste because ZC is still around to catch all the garbage that comes from all these attempts I've been forcing.

The currently partially nonexistent article, I am thinking, is about the decadence of innocence as the world grows fonder of corruption, debasement and the like.

It sounds awfully familiar, by the way.

Jesus Christ. What's the point of running away when it all leads back home?

The Launching Pad

I noticed how badly I stated my first post. But I read it again and then I realized how unnecessary any sort of change was because I was absolutely sure the only reader of this blog is its author and unlike a lot of authors of (mostly discontinued) blogs, this author can go on without readers.

And I'm certain whatever I'd put in this blog won't humor the masses. This is basically just a big magnanimous pool where I pour out ideas and/or censures that would be too selfish to say out loud.

It's quite brilliant isn't it, reader?
Yes, beloved author, it is.

When in desolation, I guess soliloquy never gets old.

Pilot

I feel safe here.

I've unconsciously built walls with another blog of mine and it feels good to be away from it, even if it's just a brief while. I thought I'd find a good side of me while writing as the Quasi-Dodgeball Star but I never successfully put the "obscurities in perspective" and all I seemed to get was this distorted image of someone who thought she knew a lot.

I'd hate to continue masquerading so I'm thinking of letting it cease, figuratively. I mostly feel brain-dead when I try to make a new post anyway and I don't think it's much of a big deal for me or for anyone if it declines like it will soon.

And besides, I think one of my friends from school tracked down that blog. I don't want anyone I know personally to do so. The reason would be clear as I update this blog.

So my old blog is still online but my head's not into it anymore so I declare its "Sort-of" death today, November 20, 2008.

I'm starting to feel a little down right now so I'll cut it here. I thank you for reading a post that most probably has nothing to do with you. :)